I'm sorry... || October 2016 Update

Hi Everybunny!

So… It’s been a while hasn’t it? 9 months actually to be precise wow… I feel awful that I’ve full on forgotten about this I end up doing everything in video form… Tbh I think at the end of every month I’m going to post and talk about the videos I’ve uploaded to both my channels that month so there’s at least one post a month haha, I’m trying to be more active on everything e.g. snapchat/Instagram/blogger and hopefully patreon as well… I have a patreon now but I only got sponsored once and I never received it either so I have no clue what happened there xD I’ve been a little all over the place in life if I’m honest. To give you an update on what’s been happening in the last 9 months… (no nothing to do with pregnancy either I swear).

February – May

I was SWAMPED with university and finishing my first year I don’t think that needs further explaining if I’m honest.

May – August

I basically spent every waking hour trying to get a job as in all my hours and effort because I literally had NO income and I was also trying to sort out a lot of financial issues with the government and my dad’s benefits (he’s disabled and not fit to work before any comments get put down on that).

August – October

I started working so I spent all my time at work and also started uni again.

October – Present

Well within this past months’ worth of time… One of my rabbits died, my fella and I had to take his dog to get put to sleep, I got fired from my job, I got an infection that I had to go on antibiotics for which disagreed with me quite a bit, my uncle is in a coma, the anniversary of my nan passing happened, and something really bad happened in my family that I can’t discuss directly but basically 2 people I care about are no longer 1 person I care about… Sorry to be vague but it’s something really big in the family that I shouldn’t divulge… I’m also ill again which is fantastic really…

I’ve also been trying to do YouTube as well as living generally so as you can imagine it’s not the easiest thing when you look after the house and your dad as well.

I know it’s not a full excuse to not be on here AT ALL but I’m letting you know what’s been going on, the past month has mentally been very hard for me. I’m hoping to be more active on insta, snapchat, here and I want to start streaming cosplay costests on periscope as well considering that’s what people voted on twitter xD

On my YouTube channels as well I’ve posted a few hair things over the last few months (not this current month specifically) but I also finished crazy craft on my gaming channel and started 2 new Minecraft SMP series and I’m continuing my sims 4 gold digger series and my crash bandicoot throwback Thursday series as well (I’ve finally got my ps2 controllers back to actually play it properly!). I going to be posting an update video on my main channel asap as well and as soon as that’s out I’m going to try and post 1 video a week on my main channel and the 4 videos a week on my gaming channel. Schedule as followed;

Tuesday – Forgotten Isles

Thursday – Throwback Thursday / Crash Bandicoot

Saturday – Harmony Hollow

Sunday – Sims 4 Gold Digger

I’m going to try and every day or every other day for insta and snapchat and at least once a week on here. I’m trying to throw myself into my channels and social medias now I’m no longer working, if I’m honest it takes some stress off of me working as it was taking me at least an hour and a half there and back so 3 hours travelling without traffic just to get to work, I do that for uni as well but its 2 days a week but with work on top it was like 4/5 days a week dependant on m shifts really so.

I know I don’t have a big following but I don’t really care I just wanted to give an update! Thank you all so much for reading and I will speak to you all soon!

Em

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Tattoos ~

Hey Everybunny!

So I thought I'd have a little chat about something that's quiet important to me, in a sense, which you'll have already guessed from the title xD 
Right gonna jump straight in, in have 4 tattoos. Hirigana for rabbit (usagi) on my left hand, hirigana for wolf (ookami) on my right hand, an outline of a rabbit on then inside of my arm near the elbow crease and 'were all mad here' around my left wrist with the Cheshire cat smile from Alice madness returns. Pics below.

Pictures are of when the tattoos were freshly done

Now I have 2 more defiant plans for tattoos myself, the witcher symbols down the inside of my right arm and 2 traditional tattoo roses coming out a frame on my right shoulder, one red and one white. I LOVE small tattoos, like honestly theyre amazing so simple and cute and 90% of the time really meaningful. Ofc that being said big tattoos can be very meaningful too I'm just talking from experience :) for example my other halfs lower right arm is dedicated to someone :)

Let's discuss some meanings now then shall we.

The first tattoo I ever had was the rabbit outline. I thought about this tattoo for about 2 years, it was always on my mind I think outlines can be statements and you don't have to have a huge chunk of body covered to make a statement haha, although it's a VERY good ice breaker sometimes. I have been an animal lover since before I can remember (backed up by childhood photos and parents) I've had rabbits for a long time too. I now have 2 mini Rex girls and theyre beautiful <3 wolves and rabbits are my favourite animals and theyre the animals and animal meanings I feel I can relate with the most. The rabbit tattoo took around 5 minutes to tattoo so in the same session we did the usagi writing on my left hand, another 2 minute job haha. A few months later I had the alice wrist tattoo and the wolf writing in one sesh as well. I had it the night before my 2 friends had tattoos as well. I forgot to mention my stepdad is a professional tattooist and I trust no other with a needle and ink! I'll leave a link to his shop  below. Alice in wonderland and the concept of the story has been my favourite since I was a child, its my moms favourite too which I think is so lovely, and the madness concepts I've felt I could relate to. I know I'm not insane I have no brain issues etc but I've still never felt 'normal' or one to fit in, I do my own thing and if people like it AWESOME if not then fuck off tbh. Life is short and I have no time to waste on arseholes. I get called mad and insane often but I'm not I just have abnormal tendencies that people don't understand / like and try and label it. Anyways. The game touched something in me after a long time of feeling like I wasn't the person I was, wanted to be and it helped me mentally weirdly  enough. Reunited me with parts I'd locked away to be accepted in different ways. I had friends and family comment about how I seemed happier, because I no longer felt that one flurry of shame and hate I'd experienced in my life. AND IT FEELS GOOD! Other factors helped but at the end of the day only you can change yourself or help yourself :) this tattoo was thought of for years in all honesty.
The hand tattoos I'd been thinking about for about 4 months before getting the first, slightly more of a whim tattoo but I have to say its gotta be my favourite tattoos , so simple but so noticeable and warrant so many questions. I have adored Japanese culture for a good 13 years if not longer its a part of me, visiting Japan is on my bucket list! Sometimes a whim is a good idea!

Now onto the 2 tattoos I WANT to get;

The witcher tattoo may seem such a stupid idea to people but 1. There is nothing wrong with game related tattoos, gaming is a way of life, artists are respected so why can't gamers be? Both are hobbies and both can take you into jobs and careers... Besides witcher had a much more significant anchor to my personality than just my favourite all time game. The witcher 2 rekindled something I hadn't realised we were losing with my other half which made pathways for other growths etc and gave us something to 'bond' over. Witcher 3 has been like I have found another part of me, something I never realised I was missing. I wear my wolf school pendant practically daily I sometimes sleep holding the pendant... It was the main thing that helped me get through my nans dying and death, its like another home to me the witcher world. Geralt an uncle and ciri a sister. She's also a woman crush but you know. I will pay tribute in the best way I can think, immortalised on my skin for the rest of my life. And I know people are like well what if you change your mind, it may not be my favourite game forever but its meaning and what makes it special to me will never go away or change... I won't regret it... The witcher tattoo I want is of the signs. Signs in the witcher is basically the witchers magic summed up really. You have Yrden, Quen, Igni, Aard and Axii, they all have different abilities for example igni is a blast of fire and quen is a shield a witcher uses in battle. you cast the signs and the effects are immediate for a certain time. As ive been advised the pendant itself wouldnt look very good, and tbh from other peoples tattoos i've seen i agree, which im hopefully gonna design before the end of the week to give to my stepdad as were going to work on some filler around the signs :)

Moving onto the second tattoo i wanna get, the 2 roses are basically a symbol for my mom and nan, a tribute if you'd like. I dont think that needs much more explaining really now does it? Roses because my mom has a tattoo of a rose on her ankle and my nan loved roses, white for nan as that was her favourite colour rose, red for mom as thats what her rose is. Simples right? xD

There are alot more tattoo ideas i have but theyre are subject to change or go away so as it stands thats all the tattoos and thoughts i have for now :)

Thank you for reading! Please comment below with your tattoos or your tattoos themes and what you think of mine! Hopefully hear off you all soon :D Have a good hump day <3

<3 Embunny

Diet Doodle Diary ~

Hey Everybunny!

So very recently I spoke about wanting to be healthier and more productive this new years, well and happier but more on that later, and I think I'm doing alright...

Anyways the title of this blog may have you confused well, as part of my healthier resolution I at some point wanted to rejoin the gym and clean up my diet. Last night an offer for puregym appeared in my inbox, rejoin for no sign up charge and there were new and cheaper memberships too, so I've rejoined! Moved my gym to be closer to uni so on uni days I'll be working out before, after or between classes. The goal is 3 times a week! Not doable today as I've came straight from the other halves and have no gym stuff, a heavy bag of weekend stuff and no locker padlock... You guessed it not very safe...

So my first sesh will be in the next 3 days when I've caught up with my backlog at home :)

I still haven't explained the damn title... Well about a month ago I was in the works, as always, and saw some workout books one was the women magazine -insert when home-Women'sHealth Little Book of Exercise honestly check it out! And the second I saw was Diet Doodle Diary (the title of this blog) and its an amazing interactive book, kinda like wreck this journal but with more structure. So I thought I would include you all on my journey and maybe if you like the book it could help you out :)

Book Covers

Page 1

Page 2

First Interaction Page 

My details filled out :3 (dont judge xD)

 The next page ~ which i think is a lovely idea!

(I will add the edited page when i get on my pc and printer tomorrow)

Next fun little page :) which i actually did earlier without opening this book xD

Week one Diet Diary without addition

Day 1 :3

Exercise Diary ~ Forgot to take a pic of it empty xD

Next Page ~ Unedited

Filled with my answers :3

The next pages are for week 2 so i will make a new blog post next monday with the filled out diaries and the next pages:3 

In regards to diet I've vowed lent on my chocolate \ sugar addiction and I going cold turkey. You need sugar but not to the extent i eat it... I'm also cutting bread out too, its crazy how many cals and crap is in 1 piece! Portion control is a huge boulder I need to take too but I just really wanna be working out again I really miss it. Sleep too, I need to get more!!!!

I hope you're looking forward to this little journey n.n

I also hope you like the diet doodle diary and lemme know if you want me to add the before and after page views or just my filled out ones n.n <3

Just a small blog for today, sorry I haven't kept up my 2\3 a week things have been a bit hectic but I've learnt you can schedule them and I also have a tablet now too so seen as I travel so fricking much I'm hoping to do as I'm doing now and draft some piece up in the meantime here :)

Thank you for reading!

<3 Embunny

New Year and New Years Resolutions - 2015 into 2016~

Hey Everybunny!

FIRST OFF!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR <3

So this is a post I’m pretty sure EVERYONE and their mother’s post this time of year! Around my blog I have a goodreads widget next to them showing the books I’ve read/reviewed and my goal… I didn’t accomplish my reading goal this year but I’m hoping to change that and make sure I accomplish that goal next year instead now but this has got me thinking of resolutions and such, which funnily enough also links into my goodreads post! What a good transition!

So I’ve recently read ‘Girl Online’ by Zoe Sugg and her character in the story is a blog writer (also a little kick up the butt to carry on with this lil ole thing) and in the story she makes a blog post about new year’s resolutions, she mentions in the post you’re only meant to give yourself 3 resolutions because you’re more likely to achieve them then. So I wanted to write out mine and explain them a little more in depth (the goodreads goal doesn’t count as a resolution that’s just a challenge I’m giving myself is all ahha)

RESOLUTION 1;
~ Be Happier

RESOLUTION 2;
~ Be Healthier

RESOLUTION 3;
~ Be Consistent

The first resolution really goes without saying doesn’t it to be honest? 2015 was a REALLY REALLY sad year for both me and my family and it looks like in 2016 my other halves family will be going through some heart break as well </3 but due to the amount of things I give myself to do and the amount of responsibilities I take on I don’t get time to just make sure I’m happy…  I really need to change that, I have an issue called ‘idle hands syndrome’ if you google this now you’ll see it’s a term given to people that smoke and drink, basically when they quit their hands seem to do move around and say hold pencils like cigarettes or something. But I have never touched a cigarette in my life and ive only even been black out drunk once (which put me off drinking at all for months may I add and I’ve had to work myself back up to drinking at all especially koppaberg) no no I get this probem because I AM ALWAYS DOING SOMETHING! Even when was a kid before I had a mobile phone I was never still, my hands ALWAYS have to be doing something (which makes lying in bed chilling difficult I have to sleep or be on my phone/laptop or I feel myself going crazy) it’s a really bizarre thing if I’m honest… but due to this I just feel the need to always be doing something and don’t take time out to ‘smell the roses’ which is what I want to accomplish more in 2016, be happier and calmer and more relaxed I just want the stress to go away…

My second resolution is again very simple, you may or may not have seen my blog posts about getting fit and going on a diet (not exactly to lose weight but to clear my shitty diet up and get fitter) but they all failed miserably I did well for so many months and then just crashed and burned at the first hurdle. This year I’m not going to put THAT much strain on myself. I plain old just want to be more healthy and fitter and see where that leads, less takeaways and more home prepared foods. More colours and less browns (now that I’m no longer working I won’t feel the need to sneak off to maccies or something every day). Less chocolate and more fruits (in moderation as that also has high sugars and acid). Just overall cut out more of the crap! Going to give some apps a try with workouts and meal suggestions etc and I’ll leave some reviews for you! I also want to try drinking more water which wasn’t going too well but I found something that helped me. The less often you need to refill your glass or container the more likely you will refill often, so I’d recommend changing glasses to larger glasses like milkshake containers. There is something amazing online I really would like to buy but at like £18 it’s expensive for a bottle really…. It’s called water m8. But you only need to fill it twice a day and it has markers on where you should have drunk to by what time (obvs for those who do not do work outs or have very demanding jobs physically who need more water). Or you could buy a normal water bottle to take out with you like I have at the minute. I also use the app ‘My Water’ it’s 79p on the itunes market place and it looks really cute! It also has a great deal of drink options and amounts to really personalise what you’re drinking and it estimates how much you should be drinking on your weight, height, age and gender etc J So look out for some app reviews! J

My third resolution is again a big thing for me, especially with uni (as I’m writing this now I really should be doing a uni assignment which I left for a while given my mental health state and such) and youtube as examples, I am never consistant I say I’m going to do something and rarely stick through with it, I’m not saying there’s going to be a huge noticeable change, but what I’m saying is I’m going to TRY and fix it. I haven’t thought of how I’m going to but when I do I will let you all know J

Thank you all so much for reading! For those of you who have read all this blubbering perhaps you could post your resolutions in the comments and then we can meet back here when we feel we are accomplishing/failing them for moral support on both ends? J Hope you’re able to welcome in the new year with someone you love regardless of who or how (no one needs to party to have a good new year!)
Thank you for making my 2015 that little bit more special <3

<3 Embunny

p.s. I don’t actually remember my new year’s resolutions (if I had any) for last year…