Cindy~

08/06/2011, that's when god decided to have another little angel <3 

I miss you... Cinders...

'Now that it's over
I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of heaven looking back at me
Now that it's over
I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices i made
And I can't live with myself today'

~ Skillet, Lucy

It's been 4 years today, no wonder i was having trouble sleeping. You were truly my best friend, you were the reason i'm still here today. My rock. My hope. My everything. I truly miss you so much and i still find it hard to be able to accept that youre not here anymore...

I wish that i could have done it differently, i wish i could have changed the end so you werent in pain. It feels like its my fault, when i know it isnt my fault at all...

I was young and i didnt know much, but i wish you have slipped peacefully away, but im glad at least that it was quick, I never got to say goodbye to you and it hurts, i wish i could have made that last kiss and cuddle truly special to soak up all of you that i could before i had to face the world alone...

I miss you and i will always miss you it'll never truly get easier, its still a heartache for me :(

But i love you, i will always love you, not even my bunnies have been able to fill my hole in my heart that belongs to you, i had my one true pet and now youve left that'll be it for the dog part of my life. I will love other dogs and be upset and devestated if something happens to them, but you were my first and my only. I miss having you lie with me and snuggle and licking my tears away, while i held onto your fur and howled my own song.

I love you <3

Always <3

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Umbreon

Hey all!

So, umbreon. If you do not know him please do not read this post x3 i say that because you wont have a clue who i mean! 

POKEMON! The game/tv series of generations, i watched this every monday after school, my mom would pick me up and we would go to my nans for a lamb dinner and is watch cartoons before the news and dinner :) pokemon was by far my favourite and i even collected all the handheld console games (well the coloured adventure ones) till fire red and leaf green. I am getting back into them though. 

Anyway, my favs were always! Ponyta and Rapidash along with Vulpix and Ninetails (: buh then 2nd gen came along an changed the game, a lil cutie called cyndaquil won my heart and so did umbreon the dark eeveelution. Over time i stopped paying much attention to pokemon as i felt the franchise was being ruined. Earlier this year i took up my pokemon love again through art and requests. Im hooked again. Only this time thanxx to pokemo mystery dungeon it was totodile who was my favourite as i turned into him loads of attempts. But then, unexplained even to me, a little black and yellow ringed puppy appeared and reignited what i truly loved about pokemon. How adorable they can be and powerful! I felt this was expressed in the little umbreon imenssely! Ive the  proceeded to get an umbreon hoodie and plushie and interned to make polymer clay  jewellery of him! 

This is what happens when Embreon is released ^.^ 

Thank you for reading :) hope you enjoyed the pics! 

Em

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Presents

Soooo, i havent posted for a long while it seems, i apologize ive been rather busy. 

Anyways... Presents, we all know the power of a gift. It can express love, joy, freindship, can prove to someone how much you care about them or how well you know them. See im an amazing present getter. Not bragging i just am. I go the extra mile for folks. Or i just know things to get people will love. One person who gets this alot is my Ducky. I have cure little traditions like every event i buy him a chocolate thorntons lolly, every christmas he gets a calendar, a mug and a teddy, and anything else i can afford. See i admit im quite cheap but i get the best quality for a dirt cheap price. 

I wanted to get him tickets to see a beloved comedian of his but i have a bad feeling itll fall through this year due to money. Things are hopefully looking up so i can hopefully get tickets for someone else for him. 

Now i am usually constantly wrapping especially as my moms bday is at the end of november, my dads is the start of december, duckies is the 14th of December then theres christmas.

Its funny what people value present wise. For example i bought a beloved friend a bunch a stuff last christmas and her favourite thing? A cheap disney mug xD i try to recreate amazing present for people i love, and later today im hoping to tick off a bucketlist item for that same mug loving beloved friend. 

Im a person who loves to see the look of delight on a loved ones face upon opening a present, so i consistently get people  presets and i probably shouldnt given money situations x3 

I love the surprise and how their faces light up with delight an prospect, but to also see that look where they realise how much you mean to them and they mean to you... Its incredible. 

Im rather excited so i basically cant sleep because i wanna see my friends face so badly! It kills me keeping a secret! And this ones been planned for months so its been awful! Oh well all will be done at 2:30pm :) 

Em 

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